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May 22 - 2007
A Funeral Notice in my home town Newspaper
We, the Supreme Council of the Thirty Third Degree of the Ancient and Accepted Rite of Freemasonry do certify that our Illustrious brother
Robert James Thomspon
Passed Away this day the 22nd May 2007
An expert Master of the symbolic Lodges; Secret Master; Perfect Master; Intimate Secretary; Provost and Judge; Superintendent of Buildings; Elect of Nine; Elect of Fifteen; Sublime Elect; Grand Master Architect; Royal Arch of Enoch; Grand Elect Perfect and Sublime Master; Knight of the Sword; Prince of Jerusalem; Knight of the East and West; Knight of the Pelican and Eagle; Sovereign Prince of the Rose Cross, Grand Pontiff; Venereable Grand Master; Patriarch Noachite; Prince of Libanus; Chief of the Tabernacle; Prince of the Tabernacle; Knight of the Brazen Serpent; Prince of Mercy; Commander of the Temple; Knight of the Sun; Knight of St Andrew; Grand Inspector Inquistor; Grand Elect Knight Kadosh and dear friend. All degrees called to attend his funeral Friday at 2.30pm.
Funny! I just knew him as Dad.
Robert James Thompson
1.8.1920 - 22.5.2007
May 11 - 2007
One has to wake up and blog again on ones birthday. Happy Birthday to me, Happy Birthday to me. xx J
February 14th - 2007
Travelling with Tasty Treats!
To : Two Tasmanians
Happy Valentines Day
xx J xx

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IN MEMORIUM

31.1.38 - 14.2.06
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February 12th - 2007.
So, I'm not wrong. That would make me right, and other than brilliant my favourite thing to be.
Oh - please do read on.
"Hi Justis,
I had tears in my eyes I was laughing so hard this morning while reading your blog entry!
I know now I blamed the macs when in fact it was an oversight on my part... I neglected to adjust the permissions on the server for the upload to work... lesson learned. The macs are redeemed, I have to eat another bit-o-dark, and I will continue to endure the mac guy/pc guy ad campaign with grace:-)
Love,
He who shall not be caught dead with a mac
PS; secretly, I have coveted owning a mac for a couple years now… for research purposes only of course."
OH REALLY
"with grace" I believe the exact words were....
Here - let me help you - xxx J
- Click Here -
Oh Yeah and by the way

~ ADDENDUM ~
Who said it was going to take a long time for that taste?
I did say - One way or Another.

February 12th - 2007
or
February 11th
~ part 2 ~
A funny thing happened on the way to the Grammys
Yesterday a strange thing happened when I went to upload the daily blog. I had been reading the local newspapers and discovered that the Grammy awards were on today. I noticed that the Dixie Chicks had been nominated in five categories. Interested in what I see as 'signs' of the collective I thought.... hhmm...... I wonder if the planet is ready to acknowledge that the statement made by the lead singer of the Dixie Chicks, back in 2003, regarding President Bush being an embarrasment was something that should have been rewarded rather than condemned?
I went to publish the words of their song about the issue as it also fitted for me exactly what I have been feeling at the moment (as if you couldn't tell by my latest blog rants). As I pushed 'upload' - the whole computer went spasticated and lo and behold, no longer did we have a me and joolsie blog, but just one page - with only the words from the song and my Feb 11 post. I freaked out. I had wiped everything somehow off the face of the Earth and after much gnashing of teeth about being even able to create this blog on-line - suddenly ; whooska - gone in a matter of nanoseconds.
All day, I tried to rectify something I know nothing about. Sent apologetic and panicked letters to my ever omniprescent webmaster (he who shall not be caught dead with a mac) at the same time as scraping Joolsie off the floor having just discovered she had been breathing Cryptococcus Gattii virus for 2 years on Vancouver Island and wondering why her lungs had melted into an indescribable slush on the carpet, let alone me telling her that obviously unconsciously I really did want a whole blog page to myself and - No - I didnt know what had happened to any of her blogging.... why would I? Do I look like I know what I am doing when I push refresh a million times and get nothing apart from the same thing and wonder why the disappearing blog is not returning.
Contemplating yesterdays accident waiver - I concluded it was an accident, convinced Joolsie of the same, grabbed a defribulator to jump start the connection to our host server and hurriedly emailed he-who-shall-not-be-seen-dead-with-a-mac knowing through the power of my visionary telepathy, that he would be grinning somewhat in conquest, that this would be the perfect opportunity to claim absolute supremacy for PC users once and for all. Oh Great Web-Dude who reign somewhere where we cannot see, touch, taste smell or hear -please forgive us for transgressions, as we forgive those who upload against us.
Maybe it had something to do with the 3000 megabyte file I was trying to upload? Maybe it was President Bush, getting revenge on anyone who typed 'Dixie Chicks' into their programming code pre-grammy telecast? Maybe I just didn't know what I was doing? Could I blame Canada for this? I had spent time on Vancouver Island too and the symptoms in the newspaper do sound vaguely familiar. I have been having back pain lately.
All day, I mused about it, knowing the whole time way back behind my ever present mask and my self proclaiming ego that this was for a reason. I fended off the emails of the ever helpful people who would email and tell me - Did I know that my website was going crazy? Defended, however feebly, my apple mac for what is was currently worth (just a little more than a pigeon scarer) and stood beside Joolsie as she realised that the gas mask she had been wearing on vancouver island, whilst not reflecting her at her most stylish was actually the most sensible piece of apparel she had ever worn.
Grammy time came (8pm....and yes,this was going on ALL day) and up comes Dixie Chicks award no 1. PING!! Went my pigeon scarer. Current PC champion emails to tell me that it was a server problem - hooray - mac redeemed and that we were back on line......
"And the winner is - The Dixie Chicks"
I was so unbelievably happy and so over excited and so overwhelmed that I cried.
All over an award that isn't mine, a blog that no one reads, a webmaster who wants to kill me and a planet that doesn't care that three girls from Texas who inspired vitriolic hatred out of mainly Jesus loving Americans were honoured and vindicated in front of millions of people. I can't wait for tomorrow. Perhaps all the silliness will end and I will get back to talking about something serious........but for now the day goes to the girls for winning...
Not one - but 5 Awards.
And I am SO taking it as a sign.

With all the Love in the World
and Natalie - Thankyou for saying it for the rest of us from around the World. George Bush is an embarrasment!
February 11th - 2007.
So, what am I thinking today?
Global warming, Gattii and Grammys
Got Google? Get Going!
Dixie Chicks
My Sentiments Exactly
Forgive, sounds good.
Forget, I'm not sure I could.
They say time heals everything,
But I'm still waiting
I'm through, with doubt,
There's nothing left for me to figure out,
I've paid a price, and i'll keep paying
I'm not ready to make nice,
I'm not ready to back down,
I'm still mad as hell
And I don't have time
To go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is
You think I should
I know you said
Why can't you just get over it,
It turned my whole world around
and i kind of like it
I made by bed, and I sleep like a baby,
With no regrets and I don't mind saying,
It's a sad sad story
That a mother will teach her daughter
that she ought to hate a perfect stranger.
And how in the world
Can the words that I said
Send somebody so over the edge
That they'd write me a letter
Saying that I better shut up and sing
Or my life will be over
I'm not ready to make nice,
I'm not ready to back down,
I'm still mad as hell
And I don't have time
To go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is
You think I should
I'm not ready to make nice,
I'm not ready to back down,
I'm still mad as hell
And I don't have time
To go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is
You think I should
Forgive, sounds good.
Forget, I'm not sure I could.
They say time heals everything,
But I'm still waiting
February 10th - 2007.
Don't take it personally!
Has anyone, apart from me ever wondered why people say that? Don't you think it is an odd thing to say. If someone is talking to you, making a comment about something to do with you- and then adds to the end of the sentence "Don't take it personally" straight away says to me that you should.
Like - "I don't love you anymore, and even though we have been married for the past 17 years and me and your best friend are now shacking up together - but - Don't take it personally." Bizarre!
It is getting so tiring, trying to remember everything now they we are meant to say and meant not to say. The right way of doing something, the wrong way of doing something. What to feel, what not to feel - all the while taking none of it "personally".
Detach, let-go, just be not do, be positive. WHY?
Comes the cry from within me.
After posting this blog yesterday, I received several emails from people critique -ing it.
"You sound different Justis - angry." Like there is something wrong with that because I am daring to present my feelings to a wider audience therefore one can't be angry, sad, frustrated, enraged, annoyed, or any other of the "dark" emotions that are being snuffed out on a daily basis.
The other phrase that lends itself into the same category for me is "It's just business" Who's business? The business of stepping on someone's feelings, livelihood, et al for the sake of money? And it is permissable? I have been accused of being a "businessman" quite a bit over the past two years. Yes, I have had a business and my business has been the business of other peoples business. Another oddity.
I have always believed that the right to consciousness is something we are all born with. I also believe we are all born with a conscience, and have over the millenia of human development come up with an exciting array of how not to listen to it or follow it. I would never dream of doing the wrong thing intentionally towards someone - let alone plan to - my conscience has always been overactive - crippingly so. The very idea that some peoples is not is quite unbelievable to me - in fact - so unbelievable that I think it's a lie.
How can you not be aware of something that is going to harm someone else? Obviously I am not dark enough to know..... perhaps I should be more aware of it as my ignorance of how to steal a widows house leaves me open to being accused of it - whoever said ignorance is bliss was ignorant of both ignorance and bliss and thought it was just something good to say to avoid listening to their own conscience that was telling them they had been ignorant of something - though they didnt know what and that in not looking at the ignorance was then happy about it...... ta da.... problem solved....don't need to look and don't need to feel just need to say this and then continue on my merry non committal fence sitting - not taking it personally - rite of passage.
I am a follower of my feelings. I take everything personally. I believe in communication from the heart. Sometimes that heart communication might be telling me to say nothing - so I don't.
We are out politically corrected now so much that we are not even allowed to act or speak on our own behalf without some kind of waiver. That "waiver" used to be our conscience - but this is so buried now in most people that a piece of paper has replaced it.
There used to be a trust in this world, a belief in honesty first, a belief that one was innocent until proven guilty. The perameters for those things, and the people who make the perameters were also subject to the same rules. Not any more.
"Im sorry madam, but to use this paper cutting guillotine you will have to sign this accident waiver and then pay us for the right to use it" (true story - not from some dark age but from yesterday). This used to be an internal mechanism. If you use the guillotine there is a risk - be careful not to cause yourself harm....be conscious while you use it. We cannot be trusted anymore..... but the fact that someone else makes me sign a form that denotes my own lack of conscience and consciousness whilst using a sharp object is insulting.
Whatever happened to the concept of an accident?
Have you noticed. There are no accidents anymore. I don't know what happened to them or who outlawed them but they seem to have died a silent death and been replaced with the accident waiver form.
Here are a couple of accidents that have transformed themselves into high brow policies.
"The beverage you are about to enjoy is hot" Starbucks cup.
" The strata title council has approved that residents may install a bicycle rack at their own expense in their own car space at their own discretion as long as it fits the guidelines of the intel design company - medicdesigns. Residents must be informed that this decision is in view of bicycle safety" Apartment block.
What exactly is this saying - are we protecting the bicycle, the rack, the car parking space, ourselves, the strata title council??? and from what..... thats right an accident.
I was told by my father recently that I was an accident. Something that I knew already, but seeing as accidents have been replaced by death waivers and such like and are now nothing more than a space for a signature - you may understand why I might be feeling a bit concerned. With that accidentless universe descending, this blog and the words on this page will and probably already have become all that is left of me..... but what is that I hear you say...... oh yeah, I forgot..... don' t take it personally - but isn't this a format for me to write about things that affect me personally? Or have I once again misunderstood the concept of the universe.
Would you prefer it if I was less personal - rhetorical question really.
I must write my waiver form now, before I lose all sense of emotion completely.
" I ------ fill in name here ------ do understand that Justis takes things personally. He feels a wide range of emotions both good and bad. He is completely and chronically aware of it. In signing this form you agree that this is no accident, even with the knowledge of his birth being accidental and any heretoforth dealings with Justis are at the signees own risk - you will take things personally, you will have emotional reactions, you will know that they are all yours and agree to detach from detachment of the same. Yours sincerely. The consciously conscious voice of unconscious conscience - emodied and delievered. (formerly known as Justis)
February 9th - 2007.
Here is a quote from Al Gore today -
"Mr Gore said global warming was man-made and was akin to the planet suffering from a "fever as a result".
"It is a challenge to the moral imagination of humankind to accept the reality of the situation we are facing. We are not used to this. There is nothing in our prior history that equips us to think that we could be in the process of destroying the inhabitability of the planet," he said.
Humans had slipped into a way of thinking that was centred on "short-term gratification", and now faced the challenge of "transforming ourselves and changing the structures of everything we do", he said.
Full article here
A challenge of moral imagination. It certainly is.
Our destroyer is inside of our unconscious mind. Our imagination is the link to it. The destroyer power and destruction with consciousness is done through your imagination - creative visualisation for want of a better word. Your breath connects the imagination with the reality of the emotional body, your heart beats faster as you destroy an image in your mind and finally your body reacts to it with some kind of sensation. You may experience any one of a myriad of emotions - just sit with them and keep breathing, they will deliver an incredible understanding to you. I know this technique seems ridiculous to most people - no more ridiculous than a creative visualisation when you are trying to create abundance. Just imagining the reverse. Take charge inside of yourself now and start destroying your own internal injustices - and then the planet will begin to see and heal their own. To accept this way of thinking is going to take some time, and as Mr Gore said this is about transforming ourselves and changing the structures of everything we do.
The time is now. Unlock your inner power and start breathing. You talk about it, you have judged it and thought it stupid, but really - what else are you going to do. Meditate and pray for some miracle from outside of you to fix all of your problems? Face your own denial and begin to look within. It is all true - "think therefore you are" is true. "We create our own reality" is true. Now we must really know we can do something effective to help this magnificent place we live in and that is change our way of thinking.
For those people who "critiqued" my blog and me for posting my thoughts - until you can even attempt to try and help anyone and understand this very planet that you live on - take your unconsciousness somewhere else.... Go to Paris Hiltons website instead - because I am not interested in being ogled from afar and behind pseudonyms. You have no courage - including the courage to show your own stupidity. I may end up looking like a great fool with everything I believe and I may be just flat out wrong or mad. But at least my madness is proactive and kind of noble and helpful and I am questioning myself inside of it. You seem to have no mechanism that questions you, or no courage to show your face, your heart, your mind or anything resembling a human being.
It is time for action - not reaction. Do something now or don't. However I have chosen to do something, whoever you and your "group" are that have chosen to do nothing - fine - you may have more success if you had the integrity to reveal your intentions. But that is not your motive is it!
Destroying me personally is your motive. Unconsciously In critiquing me you are proving my very point about the destroyer - so thank you - Now Go Away and be Naffy somewhere else because I am SO not interested any more.
I have nothing to hide but you obviously do.
And now - let there be dancing
Jeanie - turn it up!!!
Love J. xx
DANCE HERE
PRETEND IT'S ALL NOT HAPPENING HERE
or
Err.....don't care
Don't say I don't offer a choice! xx
February 7th - 2007.
Once Upon a time, I woke up and someone told me it was 2007. Thanks Joolsie! What happened to 2006? Perhaps there is someone out there who can tell me?
Or is it me who is supposed to know? Oh that’s right, I’m Justis Barrymore – the one who knows. The one who has minions of followers blinded by my indefinable light and frozen by my manipulative dark, wandering along believing in something that no one else can see but me. Therefore meaning it mustn't be true. I must be a liar! Or a thief! Aren’t there therapists for stuff like this? Isn’t there a workshop I can go to? You know,one of those ones where everyone sits around in a circle, confesses that they really are "only human". Or a therapist, who tells me that everything is simply a part of living in the eternal now. Wait! That's IT, that is where 2006 went! Into the eternal now. Thank God for therapy.
Yes - I am cured. (Justis stands)...
Justis - "Hi - My name is Justis."
Minions - "No it isn't "
Justis - " OK - I am a liar and a thief and I deserved to be crucified"
Minions - "We know - we have bought the nails and wood and we have made a website so the whole world can see"
Justis - " Whew! What a relief - I thought I might have to pay for it all myself - wow this therapy thing is very helpful. But - Ahh, a question"
Minions (chorus) - "His last request, His last request"
Justis - "Wow - you are all so um... musical. Yes , now why am I admitting something that isn't true?"
Minions - "You didn't give us what you promised"
Justis - "Oh, excuse my forgetfulness - what did I promise again?"
Minions - "To be Masters of our own universe. To be disappointed and reappointed into full consciousness having tasted our own wrong- doing"
Justis - "oh yes, that's right - sorry sorry - go ahead bring out the nails (hopefully perfectly manicured and painted) and do your worst - Its the least I can do for all the trouble you have gone to"
Minions - " We shall call the police to help"
Justis - "Yes - I agree - they always have clean nails and a spare piece of wood and I am sure they will be very grateful of a free website that delivers truth, justice and moral conscience to the unaware public"
Minions (Chorus) - "Hooray!"
Justis - "Ah, indulge me another question?"
Minions (huddled whispering) - "It has been agreed that you should be given that right."
Justis - "Again - gracious thanks - you know most minions are not this amenable - compliments to your leader."
Minions (chorus) - "There are no leaders here - we are all one"
Justis - "Really - just can't fault you can I"
Minions - "No we are infallible, we have made preparations, we have hidden our true names, we are ONE"
Justis - "Yes, very clever - now my question... If I am the liar and the thief and I am just saying so to make you minions happy and you crucify me and then I am gone. Can I ask - who is next on your list?"
Minions - (huddled whispers) - "We do not know yet,
we are waiting for the police to tell us."
Justis - " Oh so the police are leading you?"
Minions (confusion then eventual chorus)"We reserve the right to remain silent..."
Justis - "Ok - I respect your right to remain silent - Go ahead. But I insist on dying to music?"
Minions (Chorus)- " Yes Yes Music Music Death to Justis, Death to Justis"
Justis (looks skyward piously) "Play this in memory of me"
Music to die to when one has Minions
What a crock of absolute epic proportions. ..... Anyone who doesn't know what the hell I am talking about above - never mind - I just wanted to write that for me- my blog - my webpage - ner, ner nah ner ner and also I just LOVE that song. xx
It has been what seems like a very long time since I had the impetus to sit down and write anything, you can probably tell from that fact that there has been nothing new posted on the website for quite some time. Despite the many emails of encouragement, pity, sadness, criticism, judgments and “there there never mind Justis” – please keep writing, please keep telling us what you are feeling – we need it - we need to know, we need someone to blame, we need to make ourselves feel better knowing that you are feeling so low as well. I’d like to thank you all for your dark encouragements. I have listened to it all, watched from deep inside of myself and now finally I am ready to once again step out in front of the brightly lit aura of the collective judgment and dare, once again to say what I am feeling and thinking about not only our own internal state, but indeed the state of our magnificent home, that incidentally in the past twelve months has slipped even further into the destruction of itself that we, as a species, continue to deny. Our planet is screaming out for just one thing right now. In more ways than one – it is asking for justice. Justice in essence; Just -Ice in physicality.
Global warming is showing up to be counted. It has happened! We have done it to ourselves.
Our denial of our own injustices and dark destroyer power has manifested In- just- ice. Have you seen the latest photographs of Greenland or Antarctica? Have you seen Al Gores brave attempt to tell the world of this inconvenient truth? Perhaps now would be a good time to start looking. Instead of categorizing me personally into the role of devil, and standing on your moral high ground and proclaiming yourself king of the proverbial castle, perhaps it is time to start looking
at what I am saying - instead of thinking how wrong, how unjust, how untrue, how ridiculous, what a scam!
I ask you this… What if I am right? What if our breath is the answer? Breathe in and out and be aware. You take oxygen and deliver back carbon dioxide into the atmosphere. Carbon dioxide in the air is contributing to global warming, so somewhere along the way we must be responsible. How can we not be ? We even exhale the problem ourselves. It is time to be accountable for our very presence on Earth. To be truly awake!
I believe so completely now more than ever, that the consciousness of our very breath is going to heal the planet. If you are aware internally of your destroyer, then breathing out conscious carbon dioxide without a denied negative unconscious charge attached can indeed heal
our world. I know this concept is way beyond the capacity of most people to comprehend, and I wish I was a scientist and could offer you some concrete proof that this was true (I, in fact am aiming to get this proof for you right now - stay tuned -I have a lot more to say about
Just - Ice in the foreseeable future).
In the meantime, just contemplate what you did in 2006. What happened in your life, and how has it related to the condition of the planet. Do you really want to be Masters of this reality or do you just want to be King of the Earth castle? There is a vast difference. Where are your injustices hiding go and find them and bring them to the divine court of justice inside of yourself. Drag them out and destroy them inside of you, so when you breathe out – you know you have contributed one more conscious breath of Justice, aware of your own injustices to the planet – allowing in return the As above - so below. Anything embarrassing that you have put "on ice" inside of you and hoped to God it would go away is a good place to start. There will soon be
nowhere to hide on Earth or inside of you. The luxury is over. Abandon the fictitious castle you have been trying to become King of. Walk away from the crown, abdicate your ego, open the
gates and be free. Let someone else rescue the damsels in distress. There are plenty of dark knights roaming about for such a purpose. Your purpose is in a much less controlled courtroom, where the only role you will have in the old court of the castle is - the fool - complete with
silly hat and clanging cymbals.
Mastery is not about our personal choices. My old teacher said once “Free will is for amateurs”.
How right he was. Time to stop being an amateur and let what you want go, for the good of the very ground you stand upon. Or are you still fighting to get your own piece of land, that you control, including a state of the art defence system with borders, boundaries, visa’s and a passport that only allows limited access. All the while sitting back, incognito, behind those boundaries, watching your flat screen and planning how you will police this world with your particular brand of moral values and never have to face up to the internal court that is the judgment and consequent unforgettable taste of your own awakening conscience.
Well, while you were out there forming your castle police corp – this planet and indeed your light have been literally melting away. Why? Because you refuse to look at your power to destroy as well as create. You have the uniform, you have the badge, you have the access all areas exclusive club pass, you have the weapons and you have the tactics - but you have no conscience and therefore no results. America is finding this out now. Iraq is finding this out
now. And the rest of the World is watching thinking that it has nothing to do with them and any attempt to even try is futile.
If we do not wake up now, then we are headed for a destruction beyond our current comprehension. I think, at least it’s worth looking at – don’t you? Hell is cold, and by the looks of what is happening, this second, on our planet we are descending further into it day by day. Start realizing how much you are a destroyer, become conscious of it, find your humility now – if not for yourself, in honour of the very creation and re-creation of the planet itself. We are responsible, we now have now choice but to smell our own injustices and eat the bitter taste of our own denied destroyer. Break open any old patterns that you have put on ice inside of you - shatter those icy crystals, the splinters in your mind and as they melt you will be filled
with warm liquid light awareness - truly - enlightened.
In my eternal now that has been 2006 I have gone through personally a destruction of everything I have known to be true. Only to my complete surprise, to have it redeemed once again, fully intact, out of it's ice-box and re-appointed with myself at the helm stronger in my faith and my own Mastery. Many have tried to pull me down and freeze me with their own unconscious cryogenic destroyer because of what I believe - but none more so than myself. I want to thank someone for the very breath I am breathing. I want to thank someone for the gifts I was born with and the person I have become - but I don't quite know where to start with my gratitude.
God doesn't seem to be out there - neither is the Devil so let me just thank the spirit inside of us that keeps our very heart beating. I have learned one very powerful thing this year and here it is. ..
We have no right, not to be in awe! Start looking at your destructive thoughts - the one's you don't think you have. Look very closely inside your mind and begin to Master your internal life otherwise your external one is simply going to freeze in-just-ice.
Lets truly begin to Master our internal world of darkness...our very life now depends on it. Resurrecting our conscience through awareness will truly see us and our planet Happy in 2007, Great in 2008, Divine in 2009 and better and better until the end of time.
Wait a minute! Did I just basically say "Life in every way, every day, is getting better and better"? Oh My - Looks like I did! Ha ha ha ha ha. I'll retract that due to sheer chronic
embarrassment and out of fear of being arrested -not by the police - but by The Queen of positive affirmations herself. Here's a song instead!
WAKE UP
Maybe this year Pigs will truly fly
and upside down at that.
May we all have a truly boar-ing year
With even more Love - Justis. x
AN INCONVENIENT TRUTH
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May 25th 2007
the prayer

braveheart
Valentines day feb 14th 2007
Happy Valentines day?
Viagra sold over counter in UK on Valentine's Day
February 12, 2007 09:35 AM ET
LONDON (Reuters) - Men will be able to buy impotence treatment Viagra over the counter in Britain for the first time from Valentine's Day, chemist chain Alliance Boots said on Sunday.
So there is much to celebrate today VIAGRA is now available over the counter in the UK...............Just what the world needs!! its not natural again
There's an ice age on the way and what do we come up with...Viagra. Is there anything wrong with this picture?
When the ice age comes maybe men in the UK will be preserved in this altered state. When they are uncovered in a few million years it will become a fertility symbol of future. fabulous. The pharmaceutical companies think of everything.
Thats probably what those fertility dolls are...... It's Viagra!
Sorry, but it makes me mad. I see a film like Born Into Brothels (www.bornintobrothels.com), with children basically born into the sex industry. And we in England in our infinite wisdom are spending our time creating a drug like this.

It IS INSANE, it is totally insane.
And that's part of the reason why I feel the way I do about Valentines day. Because of what love and sexuality have been turned into.....Viagra and a Card. It's just too weird.
Love Jools
Feb 13th 2007
APOLOGY
Argghhh.........

You, you mean the blog page disappearing wasn't your fault, and I am wrong!...... other than stupid my most hated thing to be....
GEZUNDHEIT
INDIFFERENCE
You said it would be a while before the planet wanted to acknowledge that we are all responsible for Global...............

"What about now?"
Hopefully it won't be that long!
Although..........I had a conversation with a guy from Vancouver Island. He said he believed we were just a bunch of adolescents kicking our heels and there is nothing we can do about the way the world is.
I disagree and I said so. I have internally been really hard on myself and if every day I can learn something about myself and be kinder on myself, then I will. I want my life to be as good and as kind as it can be. If I am accountable for myself and my actions then there is something I can do.
I think sitting back kicking our heels is complete indifference to life.
"The fault dear Cassius is not in our stars but in ourselves" Brutus. Fm Julius Caesar.
From the movie 'Good Night and Good Luck', directed by George Clooney.
Based in a 50's at CBS where a group of journalists, presenters and program makers are trying to present stories about the world and what is really happening. Basically telling the truth. The government uses tactics to scare them into not telling the truth.
When I am scared like this I strangle my emotions, loose my passion for life and get stuck in indifference. My indifference always felt like gradual suicide. But if I am willing to feel my fear, to own my indifference, then I remember my passion for life and the planet.
Talking about PASSION, watch a dvd called 'Born Into Brothels' and check out www.bornintobrothels.com

Through this womans passion, children get to live their dream.
When we lose this fire, the passion for life and get stuck in the fear our adrenals get permanently switched on, the fight or flight response. Which means our first reaction is to protect or defend, instead of using our senses to see, feel, hear, touch and taste what is really going on.
To get past this we need to breathe and feel every feeling, not just the la la happy ones. It allows us to see what is really there rather than the lie. True perception. Ownership of our destructive nature, not denial of it, will reveal the truth.
Love Jools
later on .........the same feb 12th
Dixie Chicks Rock
If Its not enough that I get the news that my lungs have been transformed into a mushroom growing farm with the possibility of shortly being cultivated by the grim reaper.
My best friend turns my blog into a headstone. All that remains is my name and an epitaph by the dixie chicks.
Melodramatic, I don't think i have never been accused of that!
The last time i saw my name on a headstone was in poland , shortly after which i discovered I am probably of jewish decent. Hang on! that means I have different blood. I am saved. I am immune. No more ecoli.
Anyways Mr, I'm taking over your web blog don't take it personally, Trump. I'm onto your disclaimers that come shortly before your take overs.....Don't take it personally, it is just an accident....followed by. 'I'm sorry but i've wiped your blog page!!!!' ooopsie
A pair of eyes fixed on the screen for a frightningly long period of time without moving should have alerted me to the fact that all was not well. And then a hurried trip to the local hotel because the server was faster. Intersperesed with comments like, I used to do some programming in html !, to throw me off the scent.
It had now been 18 hours since I had been able to access my blog. Enough of a reason to question the conscious one! Confuscious say man who is conscious not necessarily know what he is doing.
Mr, I was a computer programmer in a past life, NOT, nervously showed me his computer, whilst expressing a proliferation of the damn server, stupid software etc etc. Sheer GONE. My blog was ABSOLUTELY NOT there.
Parting comment by webmaster 'I am going to bed now, try not to break anything whislt I am asleep' Like I ever break anything!
I mean thank God gas masks were all the rage last year in Canada otherwise I could have looked really stupid. Thank you to Armani Urban for supplying the beautiful face wear, without which this year would not have been possible.
Looks like A few gas masks are going to be needed east of here.....When will there be enough poisons in the air...Oh oh I know WHEN WE ARE DEAD!!!!! Monsanto toxic waste
I am so happy about the Dixie Chicks la la la. Hooray hooray
Love Julia
feb 12th ish 2007
Its Just Not Natural
I would like to thank the B.C. Canadian government for their commitment to money and for their lies and deception.
I have just lived on Vancouver island for the past two years, and I found out today, thanks to roving reporter Justis, that a tropical disease colonised the island (cryptococcus gattii), a fungal disease. Because the government didn't want to affect the tourist industry they told noone. Despite the fact that people had died, and it has been known about for 6 yrs. The Globe vancouver (and searchVancouver Island Virus)
The only sign telling people about the fatal disease is on the outskirts of Ontario! Approximately 2,000km away!!! So the only way you can find out is to leave B.C and re-enter the state. Mmmmmmmmmmmmmm money more important than humans, why does that have a familiar ring.
So, we have a sign on a cup of coffee telling us 'ITS HOT' and no sign warning us there is a disease that may inhabit your lungs and 'MAY KILL YOU'!!!!!
This is NOT NATURAL, ITS NOT KIND and how many tourists have to die before they are not useful to you anymore?
not natural
Love Julia
Feb 10th 2007
ZZZZZZZZZ.......

What! 2000 and what?!....2007
What d'ya mean you've written three blogs!
Oh coffee, thanks. Yum.
OK, there's a quote on the Starbucks cup 'If I have given my all and still do not win. I haven't lost. Others might remember winning or losing; I remember the journey.' By an Olympic Medal Winner
What a pile of crock Mr Olympic medal winner. What on earth would you be doing entering the olympics if you didn't like winning!!! That just doesn't make sense.
Accident waivers! I love them it means nothing is ever my fault. Fabulous!
I have a theory about what is behind accident waivers, which i'm sure is right (other than brilliant my favorite thing to be). Its stupidity. I realised that stupidity is when my understanding process is severed, leaving me internally dumb. Literally I have no words, nothing comes out. Stupified.
As a child I was often told what to do but not why. 'Because I say so' was a common answer. So I would do things cos' I was a good girl, to keep the peace, but really having no other reason than it must be the right thing.
So then when I tried to work things out myself I had no idea. Internally dumb. Silence. Nada. Nothingggg.
I once visited a school in Birmingham England that was teaching children everything in relation to everything else so it all made sense and was easy to understand. Because when you understand something you know it. When you don't understand it you have to learn it like a parrot.
Which brings me to 1995, walking through the forrest with my then husband. He said why don't we have a barbeque in the forest. I looked at him thinking he was joking, and said 'It hasn't rained for ages, if a spark hits the ground the forest will go up in flames.' He said 'don't be mad if we weren't supposed to have a barbeque there would be a sign saying 'NO BARBEQUES'!!!!!!
So basically unless there is a sign telling us what to do, it is not our fault. Cos' there should have been sign, we should have been told. (the sheer indignation)
Thats like global warming. People say 'how do we know its true?'. Well maybe because the weather has been getting warmer and warmer every year, certainly since I was born in 1962.....hey maybe thats a clue. Getting warmer, global warming...hey they could be related!!!!!
Or, we could just wait until the ice age comes and then we'll know for sure. Hey great idea lets do that!
And all because we don't want to look at our stupidity. To know that the temperature of the planet has been increasing and we didn't even notice....ooopsie. What a clanger!!!!
Where did this fear of looking stupid come from?
Probably handed down to us by our parents because rather than admit they have no idea what they are talking about they just order us to do things so they don't look stupid.
But if we have the courage to be be stupid, eat the fact that we really haven't a clue, then understanding can come back, its brilliant if we are conscious of it, because then we can stop doing really stupid things:
Like throwing bleach down the sink when we know it poisons the water we will eventually drink.
Like polluting the air that we are breathing....I mean that is nothing short of mad
Like wishing for another sunny day when its killing us
If that cognitive thought process is in place then everything is common sense and we will not do things that hurt ourselves and in turn the planet
At the moment we have accident waivers and a whole lot of other legal jargon that negates us having any responsibilty for anything. 'IT WASN'T MY FAULT'
Well as long as it's not our fault the ice age will be upon us, because if its not our fault we will not do anything.
Anyone for tea
Love Julia
Homogenised.
So we wait all this time to get our blog up and I start with hi and talk about absolutely nothing! Why ? Because I'm terrified of expressing myself incase someone might hate me or think me stupid. I have learnt to control my feelings, squash them, contort them into a pasteurised, homogenised, sterilised version of reality. In not to rock the boat, in order that I might be loved. Its exhausting!
When I do have the courage to feel what I am feeling I can walk through it and feel what is on the other side. When I don't, when I resist a feeling, I get trapped in a 'Half Life' existence where I expend huge amounts of energy distracting myself from any feeling that isn't nice or pleasant.
Completely suffocating my own self expression into a series of 'yes', 'really' and 'wow'.
The new age was my most extreme venture into self denial. Positively affirming my so called positive qualities and out casting anything that wasn't white, perfect or on an alter. A brilliant way to forget completely who I am. And my self expression was rather limited with sitting cross legged for so long.
So this is me learning to express myself without editing and monitoring everything I say, allowing myself to be all dimensions of myself not just a select few.
Thanks Tige for me beautiful blog space, i love it.
Love Julia
Hi everyone
Exciting stuff we've got our own blog section........hooray!
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The favourites are up and the art section and links are on their way.
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Thanks so much for your support...keep watching
Love Julia
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