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SENSEuality: Part One |
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HEARDI believe we have lost touch with the essence of our sense-uality. We search for meaning in everything. We rate the answers to our questions as valid if they touch one of our senses and yet our senses are so altered that they allow only certain reactions to certain things. We have been taught from birth to control our senses: don’t feel that, don’t say this, don’t touch that, don’t look at this, don’t eat that … If you’re anything like me you’ll remember listening to your parents or relatives or other adults indulging in a conversation thus: “You know the L.O. L. L. I. E. S. are in the fridge. But be careful what you say because Mr F. O. U. R. can understand everything.” From that point forward the energy changes. You can hear it - you can sense it. You know that something is going on, even though you may not be aware of exactly what. Most children - well in my case anyway – will then ask: “What are you saying?” At which time you will be brushed off with “Oh, nothing”. If you’re persistent you’ll receive a further brush off. If even more persistent, frustration is very likely to set in. If you continue to seek an explanation you could find the conversation being denied all together. Now I don’t know about you, but my ability to hear an energy shift is extremely acute. As a child it was painfully acute. I knew exactly what people were saying. If I didn’t fully understand, then I knew where the nearest dictionary was kept and would make a beeline for it. I would open the dictionary, look up L.O.L.L.I.E.S. and any other words that were spelled out in order for me to not understand the conversation, find out the meaning or meanings and head right back into the conversation proudly proclaiming that “I know I might be four, but I know what LO.L.L.I.E.S are – and I even know they’re in the fridge.” The reaction to this is interesting indeed. No one likes being found out. No one likes being heard either - I mean really being heard. We say so many things, but how much do we really hear ourselves? I have had so many conversations with people - and with myself internally – in which I could hear what was coming out and it made sense, but there was always the other voice – the one that really wanted to be heard. Because of our conditioning we tend to run on autopilot. How many times have you heard someone say something to you, only to completely misunderstand what is being said. “I could have sworn you said something …” Interesting isn’t it? I believe that we have lost touch with our true voice. We don’t listen to it. We hear the autopilot not the control tower. Our internal voice is consistently giving us messages. We have all the answers – but we never listen. We hear it, but shake our heads and pretend we didn’t. Most of the time the reason for this is that the answer is not what we wanted and we don’t like it. Our perfectly trained ego always manages to protect us from the pain we might have to go through to realize something. It’s not the fault of the ego’s – after all, that is the ego’s job: to protect us from being hurt. However, the little voice on the inside will in the end have its way. No matter how many times the ego tries to spell things out (bare in mind that trick of spelling things out to prevent you from understanding something is now super-developed …it is no longer just a simple spelling out of letters, it’s now full 3 dimensional situations in living colour with every possible thing “spelled out” so you will never find out the truth.) there is always that voice underneath that in the end will have its way. You will eventually hear what it has to say when it manifests in someone or something screaming in front of you so you can no longer avoid it. It has no boundaries. I recently had an interesting experience that I will share with you in order to more clearly demonstrate what I am saying – just in case you aren’t listening … J I was doubting myself about a personal situation – battling with what my inner voice was telling me and what I was hearing. I use music a lot to work through things. My ipod is the best lover I have ever had (sad really). I have a habit of playing the same songs over and over again (anyone who knows me will testify to that – let me digress in order to formally apologise to all my family who have put up with me driving them mad playing the same thing over and over until everyone’s heads explode.) I got hooked on this one song – in Spanish. I don’t speak Spanish, but something about this song kept at me. I played it incessantly on my ipod, my stereo and in the car. I even heard it repeatedly when I would go into shops. I was driving through central Australia with a friend when she said: “I’ve heard this before”. I just laughed saying: “Of course you have. I’ve been driving everyone insane with it for months.” She said no, somewhere else…? My curiosity was peaked (like the child with the dictionary) and so I said: “Where?” My friend replied that she didn’t know. That simply wasn’t good enough for me. I kept on and on about it urging her to remember where she had heard it before. Days later she handed me her ipod. I looked at her somewhat bemused. She said: “Just listen.” It was the song I had been listening to, but this time it was in English. Considering what I was going through at the time – hearing the English version of the song answered something very deep that I had been hearing but not listening to. I was amazed. My inner voice had got the message across. Across the boundary of my ego, across the boundary of the desert, across the boundary I saw before me, and across the boundary of language and across the boundary of my doubt. I had heard myself correctly. Consequently I touched my emotions (energy in motion). Confirming to me what I needed to hear. It is interesting how doubt led me there; how doubt helped me to listen. The ego uses doubt in order to question oneself. But what if…? No you cant do that - don’t do this, don’t touch that. In fact using doubt is probably the most brilliant trick of the ego, due to its subtlety. It invades all areas of your life and has you questioning everything until you end up totally confused and wondering what the hell you were trying to decide in the first place. Therefore you end up making no decision whatsoever, and not experiencing something - thereby not getting hurt. Clever trick, isn’t it? Take some time to reconnect with your senses. Start by listening. Listen to your doubts if you want a quick way through. Watch how they work. Take nothing they say to be true - just listen and watch. After a while you will see what I mean – you will hear it. Once you have connected with your inner voice and are able to hear it, you will hear it in others too. That’s when it starts to get interesting - and challenging. After all, how many people do you know who actually say what they are meaning to say? That inner voice is intuition. It is inherent in every human being. It is more than simply blindly following some feeling that happens to hit your senses that day. You have to question your senses - I mean seriously doubt them. Things are not what they seem. Without even knowing it we have been trained not to see, hear, touch, taste or smell. Once you start questioning your senses you will go beyond the boundaries and into the place inside of you that the ego would have you consistently search for: Intuition. You will be amazed when you truly hear. If you have not been listening before be prepared to be shocked. Because your inner voice might not be saying what your ego wants you to hear. Don’t be afraid to tell the doubt thank you very much and shut up; you’re just trying to listen to some music. With Love, |
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